Would You Want To Know?

This weekend I am going to visit my Gramma in MS. BUT Mississippi is where my uncles, aunts, and cousins live- not my grandma. "Huh?" You might say, "That doesn't make sense."  Let me explain. My grandmother is from Wisconsin. She moved to Mississippi last May to a home. "Well they have homes in Wisconsin" Not this special of a home just for my Gramma!

This home is a special home. A home specifically structured, built and surveillance. This home is for Alzheimer's patients like my Gramma. She was diagnosed with dementia after my grandad died. Since then we have been witnessing the loss of my Gramma for the past several years. She is slowly deteriorating. I have seen her at so many different stages-angry, depressed, confused, drugged, or rarely what I say to others "The Notebook (a movie) moment".

It used to be seven hours to see her. Now it takes us nine. It is such a long drive. Long in the sense of the hours you spend in the car but also long because your mind is anxiously awaiting what it will be like "this time." To get over this awful feeling Mom and I talk about what we call  our "create our moment of joy with Gramma today." We visit her just to get this small moment of joy for with her.

What will our moment of joy be like this time?

This evening I saw an article in USA Today talking about a cure. A CURE!?! Immediately, I thought-how can that be when I feel we are so far away. Or, if we could find out would we want to know if we would succomb to this awful disease? Especially after everything I have witnessed and gone through emotionally with Gramma. Or do you want to be proactive and change destiny?

Gramma in pink. At my wedding. She doesn't even acknowledge her daughter (my mom) to her right.

Here is a link to a different article, but similar if you want to read more about it.
  Alzheimers